1. |
MOVING TO CALIFORNIA
02:28
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Why can’t everyone just think like me
Cause I’m the only person who won’t do things that make me feel weird
Everyone else is sullen and stunted
Won’t talk about their feelings or they do and then can’t shut their mouths
Sometimes they tell me I’m important to them
But it’s only temporary til somebody wants to smooch them
I should just learn to not listen to them
But it’s so hard when they’re pretty and I’m dying for connection
How did I become so trusting
Always knew that if you asked I’d follow you across the country
Now look at me, I’m so pathetic
Crying over someone with my girlfriend sleeping next to me
Each time this happens I think I’ll learn
But just because you make the same mistakes won’t mean that they don’t hurt
I don’t have time to think about it
No time to cry for anyone while working off your student loans
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2. |
DREAM DREAM DREAM
02:58
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Someday I need to start living in the real world
Existing outside of theoretical conversations
I don’t wanna talk about you when I’m drunk
And wake up terrified of all my social indiscretions
I try not to religiously check my phone
And try not to let your radio silence make me angry
I think that I like you more than you like me
Cause if that wasn’t true I think that you would fucking text me
I put you on ‘Do Not Disturb’ but you’re still unnerving me
Cause if you don’t love me now
You will never love me again
So every time I hear a love song
I wanna be thinking of someone else
Cause if you don’t love me now
You will never love me again
I’m not calling cause I’m tired of wasting my breath
I’m so sick of hearing you complain about your exes
I’m your psychic dumping ground but I don’t get a benefit
I used to think that I was cool cause I don’t ever take shit
But lately taking shit from you is really all I do
And I’m so sick of waiting for my line while you just monologue
It’s lame and self-involved
Cause if you don’t love me now
You will never love me again
So when I have a conversation
I wanna be talking to someone else
Cause if you don’t love me now
You will never love me again
I’m not trying cause I’m tired of wasting my breath
You’re wasting my breath
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3. |
CUPERTINO
02:58
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If you asked me for a cup of coffee
I’d stop at Pavement on my way home from class
If you needed to take the T to Allston
I’d swipe you in with my weekly pass
But please don’t say you need me to kiss you and send you away
Cause I’d do anything in the world for you but that
If you tell me you have trouble sleeping
I’ll stay up with you and won’t close my eyes
I won’t even mind if I’m home with my parents
I’ll still use FaceTime til my battery dies
But I don’t know if I could stay here and just let you go
And say goodnight every night from across 2,000 miles
They say if you really love somebody to let them go
So what kind of girl does that make me if I told you no
I think I’d go crazy if I can’t wake up to your face next to mine I know
So stay here instead we can just stay in bed
And I’ll order Dominos
If it’s midnight and you need some water
I’ll get up and I’ll pour you a glass
If your apartment feels kind of empty
I’ll forget I’m allergic to cats
But please don’t ask me to let you leave if you won’t come back
Cause I’d do anything in the world for you but that
I’d do anything in the world for you but that
I’d do anything in the world
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4. |
KELLER (INTERLUDE)
03:00
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5. |
BAD PARTY
02:55
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November is always my least favorite month
Don’t give me a reason to hate it some more
I know it’s selfish but days like today
I wish you would lie when I ask how you are
You play me a song, run your hands through your hair
And I listen silent on your bedroom floor
You ask what I’m thinking and I can’t reply
Cause I’m wishing I was enough to keep you safe at home
Will you still think about me when you’re far away
When you won’t pass my house when you’re on your way home
Out of sight out of mind, now that phrase makes me cry
Please don’t tuck me away in one line of a song
So I’ll wait right here
I’ll wait all alone
When the days get short
And the air gets cold
Let me eat your fear
All the weight you hold
It’ll still be lighter outside
Than the day you go
November is always my least favorite month
So I won’t let it take you, stay here for a while
When the snow comes I promise I won’t make a fuss
But if you’re going to leave please don’t leave in the fall
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6. |
SHRINK
02:58
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I wanna be pretty for you
Just give me a chance
I’ll shrink down to fit beside you
I’ll sit in your hands
Use me for what you want to
As long as you come and stay
Cause what good is looking pretty
If you’re not looking anyway
I’ll shrink, I’ll shrink, I’ll shrink to fit
Take up less space so you can fill it
I’ll disappear like all the girls you’ve got yourself inside
Waiting for my turn to ride
I just want you to love me a little more than you do now
Tell me how, tell me what to do
Cause I don’t want to but I know that I’d drop everything
The day you’re seeing me the way that I’ve been seeing you
I hate that I wish this on me
I’m tired of feeling dumb
I’m ready to be a baby
I don’t wanna be your mom
I’ll shrink, I’ll shrink, I’ll shrink to fit
The same way all those others did
I’ll disappear like all the girls you got yourself inside
You sure know how to pick your type
And I just wanna be it
I just want you to love me a little more than you do now
Tell me how, tell me what to do
Cause I don’t want to but I know that I’d drop everything
The day you’re seeing me the way that I’ve been seeing you
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7. |
PET
03:00
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Sometimes I like to imagine what it would feel like
To be pretty enough
That you don’t have to wonder if that’s the reason
They saw you naked and won’t call
Isn’t it crazy how two people can have opposite perceptions
Of the same situation
Now I stand in the mirror before taking a shower
Trying to envision what you see
Now I’m twisted contorting and finding the angle
You got sick of seeing me
Somebody told me you won’t know how bad it hurts until you do it
And I should’ve believed them
Cause now I wanna be your pet
Hold me like your baby
I don’t wanna be ugly
I wanna be your pet
Forever
In my head I’m still fifteen
Eating half of all my meals
Unreciprocated feelings
It’s not you it must be me
I know that I’m only human and I need validation
I’m cursing insecurity
Cause I still want somebody to tell me they want me
To silence my fragility
I’m feeling stupid
Didn’t know how much I’d need it til I had it
And now I can’t have it
Cause now I wanna be your pet
Hold me like your baby
I don’t wanna be ugly
I wanna be your pet
Say you think I’m pretty
Take my heels off for me
I wanna be your pet
Performing for affection
Craving your attention
I wanna be your pet
Hold me like your baby
I don’t wanna be ugly
I wanna be your pet
Forever
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8. |
BRANDON FLOWERS
02:58
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Each time I leave I say that this is the last time
A few more months and we won’t do this again
Familiar acid building in my stomach
I’ll see you soon but I just don’t know when
I’m walking through this Texas airport
And the first thing I hear is some Brandon Flowers song
Life’s synchronicity is too much to handle
And if I never leave again it’s gonna be too soon
Wishful thinking is so useless
In my head it’s all I do
Every day inside this ghost town
Is a day I could’ve spent with you
I’m half asleep and I’m still sure you’re beside me
I smell your shampoo on my pillowcase
Not sure if it feels worse to forget or remember
I’ll start to lose you in a couple of days
For now I’ll fall asleep inside this airplane
Land in three hours with tears in my eyes
Next ticket I buy is gonna be a one-way
And you’ll be waiting on the other side
Wishful thinking is so useless
In my head it’s all I do
Every day inside this ghost town
Is a day I could’ve spent with you
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9. |
INCONVENIENT
03:01
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I think you liked me more from far away
It was easy when I was imaginary
Now I’m real and it gets harder to ignore
That there’s lots of things that you don’t like about me
When you love someone who lives inside your head
You can scrub away what doesn’t fit your narrative
All the big unseemly feelings that they hide
Cause their sadness means you’re less likely to care for them
I’m sorry I know it’s inconvenient
For me to be the one who needs something
What do you do when you become the second choice
When you can see it in their eyes they’re getting bored of you
I should’ve realized you can’t romanticize me
While I nurse my broken heart in the room next to you
Never thought I’d be your inconvenience
Even the concept makes me sick
I wanna talk but it’s the same words over and over
I wanna write but you’re the only thing I’m writing about
I wanna die but I don’t think that I’m that serious about it
I wanna tell you I love you if I thought it would work
How many times can I apologize
How many honest pages can I write
How many dinners can I cook for two
How many errands can I run for you
Next time I cry I’ll do it in my room
I won’t be sad when I’m in front of you
I’ll keep my feelings safe inside my head
Just so I won’t be inconvenient
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10. |
FOURTH OF JULY
03:12
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There’s a ghost in my house and he lives in your room
I’m possessed by the cheap imitation of you
Used to leave your door open, you close it instead
Now I’m smiling alone at the back of your head
Now I can’t help but feel every second’s a waste
If I’m not under covers with my head on your chest
Punish me for the times that I made you upset
Just tell me what to do so you’ll like me again
Let me back through your door
Let me back in your bed
I keep trying to talk but start crying instead
Every word that I write
Everything that I do
Every day I’m alive is a love song for you
In your room in the dark on the Fourth of July
Watching fireworks burst as I’m closing my eyes
With a smile on my mouth at the stupid cliche
I knew I’d never see fireworks the same way
Let me back through your door
Let me back in your bed
I keep trying to talk but start crying instead
Every word that I write
Everything that I do
Every day I’m alive is a love song for you
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11. |
DIFFERENT
03:32
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How do you move on to someone different
If you’re my favorite person that I’ve ever met
And if you tell me I’m your favorite too
How can it work with someone else but not with you
I never knew how bad
I wanted you to want me
But I want you to really want me
Not cause it makes sense logically
Superstitious when I’m watching things go wrong
I try to find the moment that I wrecked it all
A reason for the unexplainable
Put things in order to maintain some control
Our circumstances changed
But I don’t think I’m different
I don’t want somebody different
I don’t love you any different
I never wanna cry over anyone else but you
So if you need to make me sad again do what you need to do
I never wanna cry over anyone else but you
So if you need me to keep crying then that’s what I’m gonna do
I never wanna cry over anyone else but you
So if you need me to keep crying then that’s what I’m gonna do
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12. |
GEMINI SLANDER
03:19
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Somebody told me at a party
That writing a new song is the best way to complain
And it feels good cause I’ve got so much to complain about
You’re a Gemini I guess that’s why
You fall in love with every girl you see
So I can’t get mad but you go to her house and I go to therapy
Keep trying to write a chorus
But all that comes out is “fuck, I wanna die”
And I feel bad cause all my friends are sick of hearing it
Seems like everybody gets exactly what they want
Except of course for me
So you make her a mixtape and I’m finding new ways to deal with anxiety
If I wake up in your bed
My alarm clock shouldn’t be some other girl’s texts
I’m tired of giving you my best
When you give yours to someone else repeatedly
I’m tired of giving you my best
I’m gonna keep it for myself
Cause god knows you’d never do the same for me
Somebody asked me at the bar
If I was jealous of the girl you brought for drinks
And I got mad but looking back I was defensive
If we’re five years in and you’re blowing me off
For a girl you’ve known two weeks
The answer’s no I’m not jealous
It’s kind of pathetic
You can pick up my drink tab
Cause you don’t deserve me
I’m tired of giving you my best
When you give yours to someone else repeatedly
I’m tired of giving you my best
I’m gonna keep it for myself
Cause god knows you’d never do the same for me
I’m tired of giving you my best
When you give yours to someone else repeatedly
I’m tired of giving you my best
I’m gonna keep it for myself
Cause god knows you’d never do the same for me
Cause god knows you’d never do the same for me
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COWBOY BOY Los Angeles, California
PINK GLITTERY POWER POP
OLIVIA MARIA + MIKE NEVIN
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